Sunday, December 13, 2009

I wish I was on Friends circa 2000

According to many astrology profiles and even chinese restaurant place mats, I "seldom make lasting friendships" and things just fizzle!

I stopped and thought about that recently, and DUH, I moved twice in 5 years, so how is it possible to keep the same friendships? I mean, I do have some from Minneapolis & Brownsville that I still consider dear, dear friends.

In Austin, I made friends easily. But maybe I'm already starting to see things fizzling? My job requires me to work on weekends sometimes....often times, I'm legitimately exhausted!

Today, I have all the time in the world (FOR ONCE), and I'm not even getting some texts back...other peeps giving me lame excuses.

I just feel like I did when I was in 4th grade and people didn't want to hang out with me because of how I looked.

I'm super sad about this...

oh wells....


Anonymous said...

Hi En Vedette!

I'm a college senior finishing up my last semester this Spring and I just found your blog via your youtube videos a few weeks ago. I was instantly hooked by your neat style and love of all things etsy and vintage, but as I've taken time out this week to read your blog, I've also realized that though we are at somewhat different places in life, the same issues just keep popping up. What do I want to be? Should I follow my passion? Am I fine with being just another worker bee or do I want to do something special? Why am I having such a hard time making friend connections in this new environment? Do I spend too much time thinking in my own head? lol And at least for me, what is stopping me from being the person I want to be? You see, I had a rough transition into college life, and I've been a late bloomer in the friend department as well. It's hard to start up friendships once everyone has already made connections. And once I emerged from my crazyness (stronger and happier I might add), I had a hard time breaking through the connections everyone had already made. I've trudged along, but have yet to find the real loyal kindred spirits that I had had before. (I lost a lot of them in the transition.) I've managed to make it through, but I've had to rely largely on acquaintances and not intimate friendships. And I've yet to find the cultural artsy, quirky milieu I'd loved at my university. Furthermore, I'm getting to the point where I'm questioning everything. I'm an environmental law major (save the trees!) lol, but it seems like I change my mind on what I want to do all the time. Especially since I spent the summer studying forestry management in New Zealand. I just want to be a wandering hiker now! : ) Anywayz, I'm working hard to find my way too. And I just wanted to tell you that you’re not alone. Someone does read your blogs and it’s so relieving to find the same questions in your writings! So I wish you lots and lots of luck! We’ll find our way out eventually!


Aberdeen said...

Awww, Char! It touches my heart that you should write such a sweet and meaningful message!

I am really hoping that my future posts can be helpful to you, because I think, at 25, that I am finally beginning to figure things out!

There's a quote from a book that I read:

"You need to lose yourself to find yourself".

I am perfectly content at the moment just being who I am, regardless if it seems like there is a "goal" in mind. Life is all the little things, not the "big thing" that is not even for sure gonna happen!

I am beginning to keep branching out with friends, trying to be a good friend, too, and that is making me sooo happy.

I wish the best for you and please keep in touch!



Anonymous said...

Gah! I love that quote! Am going to put it over my dresser! It sums up what I feel completely. I've focused so much on getting myself back in certain areas, that I've lost my self in others. But it's true, now I can start all over fresh and be whoever I want to be! Everyday is a fresh start. I'm taking this winter break off to think things out and come back refreshed. I'll keep you updated! And keep blogging! : ) Take care!